Mess, distressed

An original poem by Melissa McDevitt Mess, distressed I’m a mess I am feeling drugged, I was never a thug. Where is the loved, This schizoaffective? Like another collective. Distressed, not a mess. It’s just now I’m depressed. I don’t like tons of Abilify I wish I could dignify, Reality is not a game, NotContinue reading “Mess, distressed”

My obsession with A.C. The crush continues

What do you want me to call you? I could call you A.C., babe, daddy, babe, bae., or some other name? I want to tell you more, but you are not around. I want to tell you everything, just like you told me that I should. I hope that you and your family are doingContinue reading “My obsession with A.C. The crush continues”

My obsession with a cute and undateable boy, 2.

I miss you; I want to air kiss you. You’re my favorite babe. I always want you to miss me. You feel so good. You don’t want to be with me the way I want to be with you. I know you’re my number one, with you I have so much fun. Sometimes I wishContinue reading “My obsession with a cute and undateable boy, 2.”

My thoughtful obsession with A.C. a cute and undateable boy. 1

I miss you; I want to air kiss you. You’re my favorite, babe. I always want you to miss me. You feel so good. You don’t want to be with me the way I want to be with you. I know you’re my number one, with you and I have so much fun. Sometimes IContinue reading “My thoughtful obsession with A.C. a cute and undateable boy. 1”

My obsession with A.C. a cute and undateable boy.

A.C. is a boy who refuses to date anyone. Sometimes I feel like we’re dating and we’re not. I generally prefer casual relationships or opened ones but he’s getting to me on how he doesn’t want any level of commitment. Here is one Text message to A.C.: Sometimes I think I’m more Lesbian than straight.Continue reading “My obsession with A.C. a cute and undateable boy.”

Bipolar disorder with mania

Bipolar disorder is one type of mental illness. I’m not going to pretend that I’m an expert about everyone with Bipolar disorder because I’m not. All I know is how my mental illness relates to myself. I want to read the DSM-5 so I can become more than a little average person’s understanding. To myContinue reading “Bipolar disorder with mania”

Cigarettes & Bipolar

Yea Yeah McDevitt.Melissa is still smoking February 22, 2020 I love cigarettes. I can’t stress it enough how I love them. I feel frustrated that I cannot seem to shake this dirty habit. I believe that I’m all messed up today. I don’t know why? I feel I have had emotionally abused as a smallContinue reading “Cigarettes & Bipolar”

A New and Honest Me Hopefully Soon Smoke-Free New Year Resolutions & My Own Mental Health

Me at the Gym looking tired. Does anyone have the resolution to quit a dirty habit, and there are limited resources out there to help? I feel that is the case with my cigarette addiction. Could someone please leave information about hypnotism or a quit smoking group in New York? I’m going to leave myContinue reading “A New and Honest Me Hopefully Soon Smoke-Free New Year Resolutions & My Own Mental Health”